| Oh gosh, its been a LONG time since I used xanga, ahha and I was so sure I'd never use it again...
So, I decided to write up and entry, cuz I just felt like writing Today was like, my first day of rest, real rest, all summer! I've been coming and going everyday, and its just been so TIRING.. I mean, yeah, of course its FUN, but still, it really takes QUITE a bit of energy..
Overall, life is just really good. I've been meeting up with a TON of old friends and going to the beach a lot.. yeah, its been relaxing and fun, but reality is, I really miss Japan. This summer has finally made me realize that next year, it wont be only for my summer vacation that I will be coming to Finland.. but it will be for a longer period of time. THAT is really scary.. I'm not so sure I'm ready for something like that. In fact, I really just DON'T wanna come here.. its way too small and the people are too narrow-minded and argh.. I just hate it. It's really frustrating, because I'm finnish and I don't feel finnish at all. Of course I can't be Japanese, but I feel MORE japanese than I do Finnish, and well.. argh.. I just don't fully belong in ANY culture.. but in Japan I feel most at home. Argh.
Anyhow.. music-wise things are going REALLY great right now!:D Our band.. (which currently has no name) has a manager now and this year we are going to finally record a real demo in a real studio with professionals and stuff. That is a DREAM come true for me and it's something that I want to put my whole heart to. This next year is going to be very busy and I truly hope that I will have the strength to be devoted to everything I need to be a part of, because there really is going to be SO much to do. For me this recording thing is number one tho, because it's something I feel like I really need to do. Of course graduating is at the top of my to-do list haha..
I truly hope that as our band begins this project, we will all put our whole heart into it and do our best. Anything could happen with it, including, NOTHING. SO, I truly just hope that I will be able to face anything that happens. I trust in God.
Oh and one more thing, I love my nephew:)<3
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